08.28.2024

Finding my identity again (after almost quitting)

It happened again. I think this was the first time since the last time I took a long break that I almost quit Japanese. I think it's important to write about so I can look back and see when I felt this way in the past. This time around, I didn't give up. I just did the minimal and kept up with anki. I was dreading the reading practice for grammar when I was doing it, so I switched back to textbook study which has helped get me back into it.

I almost had an identity crisis haha. I was thinking about quitting Japanese for Norwegian. I think ideally, I would probably rather live in norway; however, I love the Japanese language and it brings me so much happiness. I think I'm starting to build a new identity for myself after my breakup

I think in the past, I almost used Japanese as a crutch to escape from the pain and unhappiness that I felt in my previous relationship. For a while, I think I let that be my identity. Well, I think I'm starting to learn that studying Japanese is fun, just for me.